I think I have commitment issues. No not the big kind either. I am very committed to my marriage and kids. I am talking about the small ones. The ones where someone will say, hey lets have lunch on Tuesday, I stutter, Do you want a play date on Monday? I panic. How about this one, I love to have my nails done, but I can't commit to being faithful going every two weeks so they usually look worse than the original! Its a problem . My sister begs me to come to NC,I say yes, when it gets closer,I can't. I never tell my children when I am going to take them to Disney,a movie or even the mall, I am too afraid I will not make it there, and then will have to explain why we aren't going. This is why they think I am so spontaneous, because I never fully commit until the moment we leave. This is a problem. I know there is a word for it. I have committed to my triathlon, the training, not so much! My one good friend always give me an out. She is so good to me! She know I will commit and then freak,so she has found a way for me to always have an exit strategy. This really works too, because I rarely, if ever, cancel on her, just knowing I have an out give me relief and the anxiety is gone. I think it is that I am afraid to disappoint anyone. I have a warped vision that this world (my world) will fall apart if I am not there to take care of it-its pure pride mixed with arrogance? a little. I realized I this was a problem when my baby girl did two things, wrote her cousin a letter and told her she was 97% sure we were coming, and yesterday she told her brother she was 95% sure he could sleep in her room! She is learning about the never fully commit syndrome. I don't want to pass this down to her! So, I am making you all a promise, I tell you I am committed to finding the solution! No more broken dates, lunches or trips, I am committed to a resolution! I will research, until I can figure out the answer! I am 80% sure I will do this tomorrow:)
BTW-the term is commitmentpobia or CP's -see I told you I wasn't making this stuff up!
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So are you going on the trip or not? lol
Blah, Blah, Blah. That's what I have to say about that. My kids and I have been victims of your so called "commitments", so I'll say it again...blah, blah, blah.
D' mom, does that answer your question? My sister is coming here! I can't wait for you to meet her!Me
wait a minute...why is my mom coming there? this would be a perfect time to get rid of your commitment disease and go to NC like you said. ;) that's my prescription and the answer to your problem...that's all i'm saying.
that blog could have been written by me, i 100% relate to that. i hate telling people i will do something, it makes me feel so trapped. i typically have a handful of close friends who know this about me, so when i do cancel, they aren't mad. people who don't know me well, would think i am a flake. did you pass this down to me biotch?? love you!
LOVE YOU ME!
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